I don’t think I’ve ever really experienced it. I have never really been dumped, hurt, or experienced sudden death of a family member. I’ve never even had a patient pass away while in my care. My grandfather passed when I was 11 but he was older and so sick that I expected it. Plus, I was 11 and didn’t really understand how much his death would impact my life. I had an early miscarriage after my son, that hurt like hell but I never got to see the ultrasound so sometimes it seems like I wasn’t really pregnant. Besides that I haven’t experienced extreme heartache. No one else really close to me has passed and it scares the hell out of me because I don’t know how I’d handle it. I know it’s apart of life but I don’t want to experience it. Not yet, not this early in life. I need more time to grow and toughen up. I need more time to accept that heartache is real and that we are all going to experience it one way or another. I just want more time…I’m not ready.
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